Mind Games

Dear diary,

            please deconstruct the fragments of my mind. 

How do you understand something that’s not understood?
When is enough, enough? Most the time I think I’m holding it in okay but sometimes I crave attention so I’m able to let it out. Everything’s confusing. My mind is at war right now. There’s nothing I’m comprehending. Am I a bad person for not wanting to listen? Sometimes? Life is scary. My future is on a tether, aching to break anytime soon. Words.. Life. Death. Love. Heartbreak. Depression. Anxiety. Deadlines. Family. Friends. Expectations. Religion. Culture. Health. Trust. Commitment. More words. Words consume the shit out of me and scathe me. Why did life treat me the way it did? Forbidden games played. Broken hearts and broken hearts again. I can’t fathom this kind of feeling. It’s incoherent. I show that I know what I’m doing but do I honestly know that? Illusion is easy to grasp.

Who really knows what I want but my mind?

Books are my Haven

To those who are reading this right now, first of all, welcome to my thoughts, my diary! It’s kind of weird to be typing this all out but since I got the opportunity, might as well right? The title says it all to be honest. 

Depression is a cloud constantly on you, it never really ever goes away unless some days you get clear thoughts like the clear skies, which is rare right? I never really had a coping mechanism for this disease, yes, a disease because all it does is infect your mind into negative energy but anyhow, I never really found anything to cope for my stability of Mental Health but one day I came across this article online and how the person was explaining peace they got out of reading, how words that don’t make sense in your mind, make sense in novels and fiction. After this, a light bulb went off and I realised how much I missed getting lost in a book because I used to read all the time when I was a child but once I grew up I forgot all about it. When I first started reading again, I carried on til no end, I’m still going. And I then realised how much of an escape it really is. The way sometimes shopping, cleaning, cooking etc can be therapeutic, reading for me is that therapy. I read just about everything and anything in romance and science fiction, mostly the love stories though because of me being a hopeless romantic! 

Reading has then become my solace in my very complicated mind. It’s my music. My clear sky. I recommend this very thing, if you enjoy reading, and want to try something different, pick up a book and get comfy! It’ll do you wonders. 

My depression hasn’t been the easiest thing in the world. I was so lost and so helpless, I had no idea how to cope with it let alone deal. It hurt most days but some days it was calm but I learnt how to get over it and that’s by reading. I could convince myself that I wasn’t what my brain was telling me, I was in my own world, exploring. 

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Release Date: June 20, 2016 

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BLURB: 

One word. 

Stay. 

It was all he had to do. Instead, he got on that bus and took my heart with him. 

That was seventeen years ago. 

I moved on. Marriage. Kids. White picket fence. Everything I ever wanted, but my husband betrayed me and I was left once again. 

Alone, penniless, and with two boys, I had no choice but to return to Tennessee. He wasn’t supposed to be there. I should’ve been safe. However, fate has a way of stepping in. 

This time around, the tables are turned. It’s my decision. Second chances do exist, but I don’t know if we can repair what’s already been broken . . . 

** This is a STANDALONE ** 

Release date: July 6, 2016 

BLURB: 

Expect the unexpected. That's what they say, but it's easier said than done. 

How do you expect a change so huge it rocks you to your core? 

How do you prepare yourself for an event that will alter your life forever? 

One breath 

One second 

One minute 

One hour 

One day at a time, you learn to live with your unexpected reality.

NEW RELEASES THIS WEEK! / Michelle A. Valentine | Shanora Williams | Anna Zaires

BLURB: 

The King Always Gets His Way. 

Women, business, pleasure: When I want it, I get it. 

I’m never denied. 

Including her. 

I will break her. 

I will show her who the king of this city really is. 

The Feisty Princess of Manhattan will learn I am not a man that can be tempted. 

No matter how damn bad I want her in my bed.

Dirty Deals: The Complete Sexy Manhattan Story

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BLURB:

Book 3 in the dark romance Capture Me trilogy

She’s on the run.

Yulia Tzakova’s freedom comes at a heavy price. Her former captor dominates her dreams, and survival consumes her waking moments. She may have escaped, but she’s far from safe. 

In the shadowy world of spies and betrayal, nothing is what it seems. 

He’s obsessed with getting her back.

Lucas Kent’s rage knows no bounds. The danger of his job occupies his days, but hunting down Yulia is what he lives for. When he finds her, she’ll never escape again. 

He’ll do whatever it takes to keep her. 

Note: This is a LONG novel that concludes Lucas & Yulia’s story.

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BLURB:

When we were ten, he treated me like a friend. When we were eighteen, he wanted nothing to do with me. 
And now that we are twenty-two, he longs to claim every single inch of me.
He was wild—untamed. 
And I, a reckless girl, who loved too hard. 
But, what we had was special.
I was his serenity and he my protector.
Drake was consumed by my love…
but he also took advantage of it…
He’d broken my heart—left me hanging for years.
He ruined us.
And, now, he’s back.
He wants me.
And I want to hate him, I really do.
But, who am I kidding?
No one can deny Drake Davenport.
You can’t hide from the almighty DOOMSDAY.
Because he is a fighter.
And, just like me, he loves hard.
He never loses and he will fight as hard as he can if it means winning me back.

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NEW RELEASE! Just Once by Rebecca Brooke

Title: Just Once

Author: Rebecca Brooke

Genre: Contemporary Romance

Release Date: May 19

A chance encounter changes everything.

After the loss of his closest friend, and with a scheduled deployment closing in, the last thing Army Ranger Colin Dunham wants is to start any new relationship. But Joey, with her gorgeous eyes and blunt honesty, grabs Colin’s attention from the moment he catches her watching him from across the bar. He knows one night is all they can have. This mysteriously addictive girl ends up taking over every one of his dreams and nightmares, though, crossing the line of another night he’d rather forget.
As dreams become reality, Colin steps in to protect Joey from a threat he never imagined. And when tables turn, it’s Joey who must protect him.
Circumstances are never what they seem.

Can just one night lead them to the other side of heartache?

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Rebecca a New Jersey native has had a passion for reading all of her life. No matter the genre, turning her dreams into stories for her readers to treasure is more than she could ask for. She lives with her family wishing every day could be spent in the summer sun.

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Review: Broken by Nicola Haken

Broken by Nicola Haken

My rating: 5 of 5 stars


Just three things.

1. Nicola fucking Haken has done it again.

2. Mental illnesses do exist, they're NOT invisible. Its lethal. A disease.

3. My senses, thoughts and feelings are scattered. Basically, I've got no sense of direction to honestly put words together to describe what I went through. Give me time. Then you'll see what heck of a story it is.

James' vulnerability killed me. Theodore's strength saved me.



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COVER REVEAL! Doomsday Love by Shanora Williams

When we were ten, he treated me like a friend.

When we were eighteen, he wanted nothing to do with me.

And now that we are twenty-four, he longs to claim every single inch of me.

He was wild—untamed.

And I, a reckless girl, who loved too hard.

But, what we had was special.

I was his serenity and he my protector.

Drake was consumed by my love…

but he also took advantage of it…

He’d broken my heart—left me hanging for years.

He ruined us.

And, now, he’s back.

He wants me.

And I want to hate him, I really do.

But, who am I kidding?

No one can deny Drake Davenport.

You can’t hide from the almighty DOOMSDAY.

Because he is a fighter.

And, just like me, he loves hard.

He never loses and he will fight as hard is he can if it means winning me back.

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Shanora Williams is a twenty-something that creates authentic romantic stories that, may or may not, make you question what a "Happily Ever After" truly is. After hitting the New York Times and USA Today bestsellers list at the mere age of nineteen, Shanora ventured further into the creative writing world, working even harder to create unique and memorable romances for all to enjoy.

She currently resides in Waxhaw, North Carolina and is the mother of one amazing boy, in love with her devoted man, and a sister to eleven.

When she isn't writing, she's spending time with her family, binge reading, or running marathons on Netflix while scarfing down anything sweet and salty. She also writes under the pen name S. Q. Williams.

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