Books are my Haven

To those who are reading this right now, first of all, welcome to my thoughts, my diary! It’s kind of weird to be typing this all out but since I got the opportunity, might as well right? The title says it all to be honest. 

Depression is a cloud constantly on you, it never really ever goes away unless some days you get clear thoughts like the clear skies, which is rare right? I never really had a coping mechanism for this disease, yes, a disease because all it does is infect your mind into negative energy but anyhow, I never really found anything to cope for my stability of Mental Health but one day I came across this article online and how the person was explaining peace they got out of reading, how words that don’t make sense in your mind, make sense in novels and fiction. After this, a light bulb went off and I realised how much I missed getting lost in a book because I used to read all the time when I was a child but once I grew up I forgot all about it. When I first started reading again, I carried on til no end, I’m still going. And I then realised how much of an escape it really is. The way sometimes shopping, cleaning, cooking etc can be therapeutic, reading for me is that therapy. I read just about everything and anything in romance and science fiction, mostly the love stories though because of me being a hopeless romantic! 

Reading has then become my solace in my very complicated mind. It’s my music. My clear sky. I recommend this very thing, if you enjoy reading, and want to try something different, pick up a book and get comfy! It’ll do you wonders. 

My depression hasn’t been the easiest thing in the world. I was so lost and so helpless, I had no idea how to cope with it let alone deal. It hurt most days but some days it was calm but I learnt how to get over it and that’s by reading. I could convince myself that I wasn’t what my brain was telling me, I was in my own world, exploring.