please deconstruct the fragments of my mind.
How do you understand something that’s not understood?When is enough, enough? Most the time I think I’m holding it in okay but sometimes I crave attention so I’m able to let it out. Everything’s confusing. My mind is at war right now. There’s nothing I’m comprehending. Am I a bad person for not wanting to listen? Sometimes? Life is scary. My future is on a tether, aching to break anytime soon. Words.. Life. Death. Love. Heartbreak. Depression. Anxiety. Deadlines. Family. Friends. Expectations. Religion. Culture. Health. Trust. Commitment. More words. Words consume the shit out of me and scathe me. Why did life treat me the way it did? Forbidden games played. Broken hearts and broken hearts again. I can’t fathom this kind of feeling. It’s incoherent. I show that I know what I’m doing but do I honestly know that? Illusion is easy to grasp.
Who really knows what I want but my mind?
